“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”. ~ Philippians 4:6-7
Unless you have been living under a social media rock and have no idea what is taking place in the world of social media love, allow me to introduce you to the hash tag #ForeverDuncan. This is the hash tag used for a beautiful couple that became husband and wife recently. There are several videos circulating on Facebook land with the caption that reads, “she went to bed his girlfriend, by noon she was his fiancée’ and by 6pm she was his wife. Wait! What?!? How is that possible? It’s possible because Mr. Duncan did not want to wait another single moment without the now Mrs. Duncan as his wife. He planned the entire day without her knowledge. And it was beautiful.
I have to be honest. I was deep in my feelings after watching this amazing display of love Mr. Duncan has for his bride. I was deep in my feelings because I thought of the years I spent wasted (in my opinion). The moments spent searching for a ring that was probably never coming. The number of weddings I attended and was part of (always a bridesmaid…or in my case maid of honor….never a bride). The moment I opened my heart and allowed myself to be so vulnerable to love someone with such depth. I was DEEP in my feelings. So deep in fact that I could not go to sleep last night. I was laying there staring out the window on the brink of tears. So I did what I knew I needed to do. I picked up my bible. I found Philippians 4:6-7 and read it aloud. And then began to pour my heart out to God. I said, “Father, every year that passes diminishes the hope that I have. In fact the H is gone and the O is hanging on by a very thin thread.” I cried. I vented. Then I cried some more. And then God, in true God fashion, poured his peace out upon me. I felt his arms wrap around me and I simply climbed in his lap and laid my head down. Instantaneously the tears stopped flowing and I felt myself drifting off to sleep. God had taken my heavy burden (my feelings) and allowed me to rest.
I love God. I love that God is concerned about everything that concerns me. I love that I can be open and honest and real with God and he understands. And I love how God is faithful to his word.
I am better now. It was only a fleeting moment of feeling some type of way. I will continue to forge ahead hopeful for the day that the man God has for me will not hesitate to make me his bride. Until then, I will enjoy my life because I have a blessed life. And I will trust God’s timing. And should another moment arise where I find myself in my feelings, I will again climb in my Daddy’s lap and allow him to soothe my troubled spirit.